Long post: updates after sooooo long

Hehehehe i decided to update some happy stuffs!
Enough with emo elmo post..... :p


Soooooo, i got a new phone during july? some sucky LG phone but still not bad lah k. hehe took losta pics from then. ^^ not v good quality but still memories hehehehe

Lets start from july:

1st photo on my LG, peijing 21st :):)

fav sunflower on her bdae decoration. Love ittttttttttt

with fav girls during school days. ghostly effects with random balloons lol

days with love

:)

school trip to LTA

school trip to microsoft. Awesome view from there

August:

Amanda birthday. (always missing june tho she's thr tsk tsk)

national day :D 

our feast after exam! yayyyyy!

meetup with twinny before intern

missing school days with you

random meetup before intern start

First day of intern at MAS

treats from colleagues on very first day :D

my desk for 6 weeks

First week meetup

and we make a deal to meet every week at least once during intern days

Sept:

LOL BIG WALK HAHA

yilin:)

yvonne^^

cute jeany!

2nd week meetup

while otw walking. jeany trying to slim her face hahaha

Sitting by the river

lau pa sat

leonie :):):)

Sixes (L)

Celebrating leonie 21st

hehe somehow we look alike ^^




To be continued! ^^ hehehe

Now already 2.28am, time to sleeeeeeeeeep. Nights

我只希望有个好脾气的爸爸

those times when you cant stop thinking how much things have changed. for the better, for the worse. 

sooooo...why after so long he still never change for the better and keep on his gambling addicts. its not like we are rich. sighs

Fyp finally over~

Soooooo, july is really a bitch month. I don't know how i go through it, because it's really feel like hell of a month, now that i'm looking back at it. Sighs. Tons of unhappiness.
There's only one thing i'm happy of i think, become closer with some new friends because of some similar problem? and we're able to clique and talk to each others about the problems ^^ But their's much more worse. Why didn't i meet them earlier, then we wouldn't be suffering this sem like this. :( Weeks of sleepless nights. I hope next sem will be a better sem for us!!!

Imma lazy like a pig now, just wanna nua!!!!
hehehee feeling happy now dk why. shall blog again soon! So lazy! :S

Recently.....

Birthday celebrations. Too many birthdays! 

They say"when you grow older,birthday is just another day to you" It's true to me. 

I'm growing wider and wider :( Mum and dad keep saying i'm fat. arghhhhhhhh.

Confession

Many times i admit, thinking my life is miserable born with sweaty palm, sweaty foot, sweaty body, acne face,with a father who like to gamble that result.... and  so so many useless stuffs to stress about and to the extend that i dislike myself so much?
Sometimes i even think that what did i do in my previous life to deserve all these. Mum have been saying our previous life we did something wrong and this life we came to pay back the debt and so on.
Time to abandon all these thoughts. I'm actually much more fortunate than people who born with disabilities. Looking at myself, i'm so shallow. Tsk.

chin up!

life may not be going on smoothly now, but i believe it will get better sooner or later! :)

SIGH i got the urge to quit school ever since school start. twinny already left, we both together came this far from ite and yet she leave this school first. now i know how she feels when she made that decision, it's aint easy at all. i dun have any motivation go on anymore. maybe this whole year 3 thing is really stressing me out. i dk or not having the girls to work tgh, motivate each other, all the jokes. everyday is just plain....boring and stressful.

FML.
i'm such a weakling.

changes

okay i'm really very bored dig out some young photo hahahahaha wtf i didnt know i look like that last time. face look super round and so zi-lian. super big round cheeks. no wonder my nickname is mian bao chao ren!!!! lame okay bye!

saw this somewhere "as life changes and get tough, that's when you change and become stronger"

need to be stronggggggggggg regardless of what. 

Trying hard to change and it isn't working. or maybe it's destined. am so sick and tired. and sometimes i really wish i have someone that i can break down to. everytime telling myself to be positive and its aint working.

actually, i really don't want to be in people eyes of "the quiet girl"i hate the fact that i can't speak well, can't express myself well.

i used to think this way "why do i have such a dad, not like my cousins' dad, not like my friends' dad, not like any random dad"

sighs, i dont want to be me.

negative -

The feeling after exam-空虚

People after exam so happening, party here and there. While me stay @ home like a housewife. hehehe cool hor LOL.

Really just want to spend everyday at home and not spend any money. But no work = no $$

when you can't even afford for a proper meal, it suck isn't it. regret much that i anyhow splurge on clothings, food etc before. *BIG SIGHS

I'm determined to work extra hard for mum, seeing her suffering every now and then makes me heartpain. lies, lies and lies. But she still live on positively and encourage me, unlike me with all the negative thoughts. 

whatever, things would be fine anwy. 

Hope my scar would be healed, no injection pleassse :( and hope i find a temp job soon. *Cross fingers

龙年行大运!

新年快乐!!!!!! this year cny as usual went malaysia on the first day bian nian etc and eat lei cha! seriously i miss the good old times when we are much younger, staying over at cuzzie at malaysia, gamble blackjack, go funfair together, climb hills together, eat breakfast at some lok kok stall, play with fireworks/noisy pao, watch some boring cny shows together etc. Everyone grown up, some even has their own family.
Anwy, this year cny is the worst i guess. Still cny period, but we are gonna chiong for few presentations, reports, prepare for test, prepare to decorate for our booth etc la. Wa piang, no time :( really hate school zzzzzz wts.
busy 2weeks ahead. bye!

cuzzie kids, sho cute. :> 

bro have a hard time trying to take photo with cuzzie nu er

bro and cuzzie so cute, take this pic so can compare next yr that they gonna jian fei

xiao jiu!

cuzzie :>

beloved brother! 

kong ming deng

mum and bro :)

cuzzie / cuz's wife

jeany house for steamboat :D 

playing with the peanut/kua zi stickers

camwhore during work haha

shimin :)

twinny :>

with twinny and the 2sisters :)